Kurt Cobain : 7th April 1994

I don’t know what should I call it ..maybe a piece of what Kurt ever wrote, subtly printed on the back of a retail market’s official card . I’ve been to this shop a couple of times, but I never had noticed before that they have this brief description of Kurt’s ..maybe final words collected at the back of their official visiting card.

It goes :

‘ I can’t live this life. I’m too much of a moody erratic person and i don’t have the passion any more. Sometimes I feel as if I should have to put a time-clock before I walk out on stage .I’ve tried everything in my power to appreciate it and I do, God believe me . I do but it’s not enough . The fact is I can’t fool you. It simply isn’t fair to your me . The worst crime I can think of would be to put people off by taking it, and by pretending I’m having 100 percent fun. It’s better to burn out than to fade away.

I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things for example, when we’re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, It doesn’t affect me the way it did for Freddie Murcury who seemed to relish the love and adoration of the crowd.

I needed to be slightly numb to regain the enthusiasm i had as a child. I hate it. I can’t play with them (Nirvana) any more. It’s not fun for me any more I can’t live this life.

KURT COBAIN . 7th April 1994 ‘

Now after the influence that Kurt portrayed in this little piece , it lightens up the true impact that he still has on people . It is something about him that still is able to connect and inspire masses .A child who though thought he was gay (by the recent news on his journals and diaries) , produced by the mess of a childhood ..developed into such a boiling legend.

The Eurythmics – Sweet dreams ( Are Made of This )

Almost forgotten today the originals . The song of a British duo – The Eurythmics most eligible song of mix even today getting mingled . The song remains still content and originally perfect after millions of fusions of this sound and lyrics as if all combiners are leveled at primary school on face . Though the best attempt goes to Marylin Manson . Just in my opinion maybe .

Gravity movie review

Gravity Movie Poster

This is the first time I’ve seen a space drama sci- fi movie and i am really glad i did . What could be better than seeing it in 3D . The visuals are really good .The literal astonishments created in the movie scenes are successful and enough to make you mistaken that you actually just lost yourself in space .

There is being carried out the final sidewalk of Mission Control of service on Hubble Space Telescope when the team is warned of debris created by a Russian missile strike on a defunct satellite which has caused a chain reaction of destruction and that they must abort the mission. In an instant communication with the ground crew is lost .

Matt Kowalski (George Clooney ) and Dr. Ryan Stone (Sandra Bullock) are the fortunate sole survivors of Mission Control in Houston. Kowalski tethers up Ryan but the two are destined to make their own ways when Ryan’s leg gets entangled in Soyuz’s parachute chords . Kowalski detaches the tether so that Stone might survive  and floats away. Dr. Ryan Stone is skillfully firm in her decision to make it home to The Mother Earth .  She does with some shady moments . She makes it through the debris that completes its orbit and threatens in every next 90 minutes . And she finally lands Earth in full Gravity , her steps shake and she awaits rescue with a hell of a story you must see for yourself . Go for it people !

I am highly exulted i picked those tickets yesterday just to pick them and thank god i picked these Gravity movie tickets .

The Associate – John Grisham book review


Ha ! Finally i finished it today . No wonder what exactly made me take so long to get it over with . But by this review i will do exactly how a book review must entice people to go for it themselves and read every word revealing a fresh temptation to collect all about it that you probably can.

This book is about the espionage at the biggest law firm Scully and Pershing that a brilliant green lawyer and an editor of The Yale Law Journal  is forced to commit at the hands of his handler . Bennie Wright , an alias is described as the handler of Kyle , the former’s asset . Kyle McAvoy is exacted by his tormentor and uses him at leverage of an awful incident that came about at Kyle’s apartment in his college days at Duquesne , his law school . The young lawyer now is at war with his conscience to steal above 4 million documents of the B-10 HyperSonic Bomber possessions of one of the firm’s greatest clients , Bartin .

The confidential information that Bennie and his bloodhound team seek are so weighty that they didn’t hesitate to frame a murder of one of Kyle’s old buddies of The Beta fraternity at law school, Baxter Tate just when he was getting warmed up with his sobriety and wanted to make amends for all his sins . Unknown about any sort of relative minds going around in the picture , he had to pay his life to the professionals of Bennie’s team who didn’t care for all humanity .

Kyle , the pallbearer at Tate’s funeral now ” not just wanted protection but more of justice “. After nine months of being kept under surveillance , Kyle could easily point his bloody disguised followers around him every second. He now needed a lawyer . FBI scrubbed into the scene and the things start to turn tensed around the blue box . And the ethical lawyer stands brave through the worst episode of his life trusting only a few .

This book is a clan of twisting situational circs of the troubled and thoroughly abashed Kyle McAvoy . This book has raised an amount of recognized domain in the law thing myself . Its a full blown influence by John Grisham and just another of his brilliant writings.

Kurt Cobain – The undone legend

It was 20th Feb 1967 when this great legend took birth in Aberteen Washington . He took the very fabled American rock band Nirvana to worldwide success with his mythical vocal skills . Seattle came to be known as the home of these legendary performers . Kurt along with drummer Dave Grohl and bassist Krist Novoselic constituted the former band when Kurt came up with the band name while he was watching a tv show on Buddhism . The band launched the first album “Bleach” in 1989 . The first single ‘Love Buzz’ although failed to make a significant lift for the band’s emergence , it clearly mentioned Cobain’s skills as a songwriter .


All this while ,the struggle for some of the band’s ambitions, in 1990 Cobain met his match in an edgy rocker named Courtney Love. The two met at a show at the Portland, Oregon nightclub Satyricon.kurt4

In 1991 , they released ‘Nevermind’, which spearheaded a music revolution. With the raw edges of punk and the blistering guitars of metal, their sound was labeled “grunge” for its murky and rough qualities. The single on the album ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’ proved to be the band’s greatest single and took the album  to the top of the charts .


While with the increasing success Kurt began to worry about how his music was interpreted by his audience . The difficulty in alleviating the uncontrollable future of the band made him go for an escape which provided heroin . The drug provided an escape as well as some relief for his chronic stomach problems.

In February 1992, the couple  got married and welcomed their daughter Frances Bean Cobain in August of that year. Both Cobain and Love were into drugs and often used together. They found themselves being investigated by social services after Love told Vanity Fair that she had taken heroin while pregnant. After a costly legal battle, Cobain and Love were able keep custody of their daughter.

While the latter’s personal life was seen to be in turmoil , he was leading towards success professionally . But his relationship with Love continued to be more strained . Later in March 1994 , in his hotel room in Rome, Italy, he attempted suicide by taking an overdose of drugs. Love woke up and discovered that Cobain was in trouble. He was rushed to the hospital in a coma. While official reports said that it was accidentally overdose, Cobain had clearly meant to kill himself, having left a suicide note.

Returning to the United States, Cobain became a hermit, spending much of his time alone and high. Love called the police to report that Cobain was suicidal when he had locked himself  in his closet with some guns and medication. Love had an intervention for Cobain to convince him to get off the drugs in a family reunion . Cobain disapproved of the intervention and went off in rage . But Cobain eventually checked into a chemical dependency clinic in Los Angeles, but left after only a few days.

On 5 April 1994, in the guest house behind his Seattle home, Cobain committed suicide. He placed a shotgun into his mouth and fired, killing himself instantly. He left a lengthy suicide note in which he addressed his many fans as well as his wife and young daughter. Despite the official ruling of his death as a suicide, some have wondered whether it was murder and whether Love had been involved in his death.


But still this great legend still inspires the hell out of his fans and he is mystical to me . People couldn’t understand how complex he was as an artist and i think it stood the best among his personality traits . The society wasn’t worth his innate mythical thoughts he tried to preserve . We miss you Kurt . I wish you were still with us making fantastic records . But i still think it was wise of you to say

” Its better to burn out than to fade away ”

psychedelic : trance and hallucinations

    Psychedelia is the subculture of the people using psychedelic drugs . Its associated with the highly unconsciousness felt during the usage of these drugs with the distorted and surreal visions of  colorful patterns . The images in the head created by this experience is something of reverberation and some bright colors wth full spectrum effect . Hallucinations are however a part of this trance psychedelia . It can imply changes in perception of the viewer’s variation of thought patterns and altered states of awareness .

psychedelic effect

Psychedelia although means ” mind manifesting ” . And offcourse there already inventives of psychedelic music in our history . The fashion for psychedelic drugs gave its name to the style of psychedelia, a term describing a category of rock music known as psychedelic rock, as well as visual art, fashion, and culture that is associated originally with the high 1960s, hippies, and the Haight-Ashbury neighborhood of San Francisco, California. Famous rock bands like Pink Floyd , The Beatles , Jimi Hendrix and The Woods performed one of the purest forms of psych music in their times .

psychedelic place of rest

             Coming down to the essence of hallucinations ..they are created by many of the absolute natural substances  found on earth .

  • Nutmeg – Although it isn’t the most useful of spices , but certainly nutmeg contains small amounts of a compound called myristicin, which is chemically similar to mescaline, the active compound in the peyote cactus. The downside about this legal high is that you need to consume an enormous amount of the stuff to have any noticeable hallucinogenic effect.
  • Magnets – Over the past 20 years an increasing amount of research has been conducted into magnetic fields and their influence on the human brain.Some scientists are suggesting that natural magnetic fields may be the reason why people see ghosts or why groups of people have shared UFO or alien sightings. Science has proven that magnets do indeed create hallucinations – colorful lines and geometric patterns – akin to what people experience when under the influence of hallucinogens such as psychedelic mushrooms, LSD or peyote cactus. In the future magnets and transducers could well become the new entertainment playground. Imagine a home console where games are played inside your mind rather than taken in through your eyes ? Sounds like fantasy ? Japan’s SONY corporation already has a patent for such a system in place .magnetic fields
  • Cheese – Cheese takes a long time for your body to digest so if you eat it before bed then your brain is too active at a time when it should be resting which results in vivid dreams.I have also experienced such dreams after eating blue cheese.  Some people point out that cheese contains high amounts of the amino acid tryptophan which can relax the body and mind and may be the reason for “cheese dreams”. I doubt that however because other foods have just as much or more grams of tryptophan per 100 grams of food. Eggs and soybeans for example are higher in tryptophan than cheese and yet I don’t recall ever having “egg dreams” nor “tofu dreams”.
  • Light – The use of light to have a hallucinogenic experience is an idea which is growing in popularity. For some people, being subjected to a series of repeating flashes of light is enough to induce a psychedelic trip.psychedelic - light effect
  • Dreaming and Sleep Deprivation are most common ways of hallucinating . As for when we sleep our mind experiences pleasant and surreal excursion during sleep in which our brain processes the thoughts, ideas and emotions we experience during our waking life.  Generally speaking dreams are unhinged and out of our control. No matter how many times you dream about your wildest desires we often wake up right before things get really juicy ! And i have had a weird interest in hallucinating through sleep deprivation as a teenager and i think lack of sleep definitely has an effect on how certain areas of the brain and the visual cortex function .                 psychedelic dreams

My alter ego is a victim of the urge of experiencing the effects of clean source of trance though . Being stoned by psych drugs would stand another perfect choice . worth it .

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