I don’t know what should I call it ..maybe a piece of what Kurt ever wrote, subtly printed on the back of a retail market’s official card . I’ve been to this shop a couple of times, but I never had noticed before that they have this brief description of Kurt’s ..maybe final words collected at the back of their official visiting card.
It goes :
‘ I can’t live this life. I’m too much of a moody erratic person and i don’t have the passion any more. Sometimes I feel as if I should have to put a time-clock before I walk out on stage .I’ve tried everything in my power to appreciate it and I do, God believe me . I do but it’s not enough . The fact is I can’t fool you. It simply isn’t fair to your me . The worst crime I can think of would be to put people off by taking it, and by pretending I’m having 100 percent fun. It’s better to burn out than to fade away.
I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things for example, when we’re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, It doesn’t affect me the way it did for Freddie Murcury who seemed to relish the love and adoration of the crowd.
I needed to be slightly numb to regain the enthusiasm i had as a child. I hate it. I can’t play with them (Nirvana) any more. It’s not fun for me any more I can’t live this life.
KURT COBAIN . 7th April 1994 ‘
Now after the influence that Kurt portrayed in this little piece , it lightens up the true impact that he still has on people . It is something about him that still is able to connect and inspire masses .A child who though thought he was gay (by the recent news on his journals and diaries) , produced by the mess of a childhood ..developed into such a boiling legend.